BELIEF

We have now arrived at our next port after a short two day voyage. Other than a foggy start to the voyage it was pleasant weather. There was little wind so the sea was calm and peaceful. I always find there is something almost mystical about the sea and I find it relaxing.

After arrival Debbie and Elizabeth came down to sea me. It was Elizabeth's first time on a ship and as always she was full of smiles. She kept giggling as well which was really nice. I do find it hard adjusting to being back at sea as I really miss Debbie and Beth. We are hoping to get the little one christened onboard in May once the ship has done OST. Hopefully the programme won't change to much as it would be really nice to have Beth christened on a ship that both Debbie and I have served on.

Well I have been feeling a bit low today but I now think that someone is watching over me. Of late I have felt there is no light at the end of the tunnel and I have felt spiritually drained. However earlier today the Second mate approached me and asked if I was in the NCF (Naval Christian Fellowship). We then started talking and it looks as if he is going to try and organise an Alpha course onboard. Hopefully it will all work out and there will be some interest onboard. It has made me think that it was him upstairs trying to tell me not to loose hope even though the past few years have been hard.

Something I heard today also made me think. I was listening to a 'Nightmare before Christmas' and part of the lyrics were "Just because I can't see it, doesn't mean I can't believe it." I really think I have been told today, don't give up I am watching. I just really hope it is a sign that things will get better this year. My beliefs have taken a little leap of hope today I just need to have some faith.