Only a month to go until I go on leave to help Debbie with the two little ones. It has been a horrible trip; I thought when it started back in January that it was going to be a really good trip. Being FOST tanker based on the south coast would mean I would get to see Debbie and the little ones regularly. However after three weeks it went downhill and I have been worried sick for the last seven weeks. After William fell ill and spent the week in hospital I was transferred to a ship up in Scotland as it was alongside. However this did come in handy when my Father in law had a heart attack as it meant I could get home to give support to Debbie. During this time we still had the worry of what was happening with William, so not an easy time.
Things are getting a little better now though as William finally had his appointment in Bristol and they have told us that it is just a gland in his lung that is swollen. Supposedly this is nothing to worry about and it is not as serious as we first thought. This makes it a little easier but I still worry.
It will be good to get home at the end of April though as I know Debbie really needs a break. I can still remember how hard it was to cope when Elizabeth was a couple of weeks old and Debbie went away for a week, leaving me and Beth home alone for a week. I coped, but found things very hard. Debbie however has Beth and William to cope with and me away for months so there is no let up for her. I know it all comes down to getting into routines but it can’t be easy and I think it is amazing how she does cope with it all. I think that if I was home alone with the two little ones for this amount of time I would probably end up in a straight jacket, two pencils up my nose going wibble and humming the tune to ‘In The Night Garden’. I do think, however, that Iggle Piggle is very irresponsible falling asleep on watch.
I am starting to wonder what the future holds as I had the interview for the shore posting today. I am not sure how the interview went as I always find it hard to give specific examples of things they ask for. It didn’t help that I miss calculated how long it would take to walk to Whale Island and it didn’t help that the venue changed. I did get there in time (just by about three minutes). However as it had been mild, I had walked fast and I was nervous, as soon sat down in front of the board I broke out in an incontrollable sweat. I dread to think what sort of first impression this made. I think I have about a 50/50 chance of getting the post. If I do get it I think to start with I will find it daunting as there will be a steep learning curve but I know that once my feet are under the table I will be capable. Being on the Maritime Battle Staff will be challenging but a great opportunity to further myself. As with any job it is all about what you put in to it and I think it will be such a refreshing change to be doing something different. I will just have to keep my fingers crossed and focus on putting 110% in if I am lucky enough to be given the opportunity to do the job. Additionally I think it will be really nice to see things through from the embryonic planning stages to completion as it is a two year posting.
A week ago if you asked me what I had to look forward to I would have said Armageddon, now if you ask me I would say 23 Apr when I should be going home. I am really looking forward to my leave as I really miss Debbie and the little ones. Skype is OK but it will be really good to be back home with them. We have a holiday booked in June which I am really looking forward to. It is going to be our first holiday since we had the little ones so I know it won’t be easy but it is going to be great. No where exotic just the UK but it will be a chance to leave all our worries behind for a week and see somewhere new.
I am going to have my work cut out during my leave as I need to make sure Debbie has a proper break and I have a lot of work to do outside in the Garden. Hopefully however all the work should keep me active and help me loose more weight as I would like to shed another couple of stone. I hate to say it I am going to be abit selfish though as I really want to go off camping for a couple of days, firstly as I have a tent that I haven’t used yet and secondly as I am getting old I want to rediscover my lost youth, meditate or something weird like that.
Well I suppose that is enough of my ramblings for the time being, plus I really need a wee wee before I get on the plane back up to Scotland.
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